Bouncing back

Past few months had been real difficult, not that i am dealing with a family crisis or anything, its the feeling of being creatively drained out, inability to take a pencil and draw something, even the doodles are unsatisfactory,looking at a sheet of blank paper gets me tired and exasperated,the whole photography gear starts to look like a bad investment and although there are films to watch,i just watch them like a turnip,i dont enjoy them, i end up watch them to kill time.., the overpowering feeling of absolute voidness, how hard you try to overcome,reverts back as a quicksand you are stuck in and keeps dragging you down.
A few years early, this used to get me in a state of panic.. but i have gotten wiser with time and assessed that this condition is like an influenza or viral infection that surfaces twice every year..now i do not panic , i just let it overcome me..and while i am in a state of recluse, i spend time reading..and gradually it withers away, i have come to realize that the only way to bounce back is to hit the rock bottom..and the harder i try to get out of this patch the more i am delaying my recovery..so here is me bouncing back..










PS : i owe a lot to Mr.Siju Thomas , whom i have never met in person but whose drawings have always been a source of inspiration.

जिएंदा लाश मुर्दा आदमी ...!!

I have been absolutely and totally out of time for past several days due to increasing load of work, just didn't wanted to have a maiden week..so quickly did one today..just before we call it a day.

Haircut

Meet Uncle Peter

Death...

Drawing inspired by "George.A.Romero's Diary of the Dead"

Another One

Finally something worth Uploading

Wacom Zindabad..!! A homage to old school slasher films from the 80's

Living with six fingers in my left hand now..

For past several days, i have been completely hooked to WACOM..and finally i am starting to like the last few paintings i have done using it, i am deliberately sticking to portraits and caricature as of now, cause its helping me learn faster..but i do intend to graduate into doing more elaborate set pieces..

John Rainbow...at your service

Faces

Hostile Visitors

2100 AD

i realized today that besides forearm and eyes..drawing with WACOM is even more hazardous to bladder and kidney,it just makes me hold my piss until i finish one painting..and i get stomach cramps..guess, there is a price to pay for everything now a days.. :D

Blast off

The Abyss

1st Attempt with WACOM

I have lot to rant against WACOM touch pads..to start with, i really had trouble keeping my hand and eye co-ordination besides being a left hander i have a habit of keeping the paper perpendicular to my head (almost at 90 degrees)when i draw..which is like an insult to an injury.
As a matter of fact , i had been so scared of WACOM that even though i had one installed on my system for past one year, this is the first time i have actually used it. My forearms feel sore and eyes hurt but i figured one thing out at the end of the exercise..its was a mental block for me that was restraining me from using it other than anything else..now when i look at the image..i feel content and elated, i think its all a matter of getting used to things and then they become a part of you..like insticts.
So the next thing that i intend to do is to get really used to WACOM, lets see how it turns out.
Wish Me Luck..!!

Portrait

I came so close to not being able to post anything today..but finally , managed doing this portrait somehow..

Another Noir style

Oil

Eh..nothing much, just tried out oil painting style using photoshop..

Noir

Following the tutorials send to me by Chandan (see the comment section to this post)..i have done some changes to the previous image, i am posting both the images so that the comparisons could be drawn.. Thanks Chandan, the tutorials really did helped a lot
After tutorial


Before tutorial

Being very fond of Film Noir..here is something that i did

कमसिन जवानी और खूनी दररिन्दा

Beauty and the Beast:Reloaded